Breaking free

I have this book that I have started reading. I have been holding onto this book for about 9 months now and have never taken the time to read it. It is amazing! It is "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore, and did I mention that it is just amazing? I found this book while I was out soul searching one day, and it jumped out at me. The title alone just captured my attention and spoke to me. So, I have dusted it off and have started my journey of breaking free.

Ten Seven of the things that I am trying to break free from:

1. My poor self-image. I cannot remember the last time that I felt comfortable in my own skin. I can always find something wrong with me. I don't want to feel this way and I don't want to pass this way of thinking onto my daughter. I want to teach her that she is beautiful just the way that God made her.

2. My foolish pride. Funny enough, the first chapter of this book deals with pride and how it can lead to our downfall. I have been battling my pride for most of my life. My pride refuses to let me cry out for help when I am desperately in need of it. My pride tells me that I can do it ALL on my own. What a liar my pride is.

3. My poisonous tongue. Oh yes, this perhaps should be on the top of my list. There are many moments when I need to just bite my tongue. My tongue always gets the best of me. I don't really have a problem with gossiping or that sort of thing (never really cared for the stuff), I am talking more along the lines of a hurtful tongue. My poor hubby (okay, sometimes he sort of deserves it) gets the brunt of it. When I am hurt or angered things just seem to automatically come out the wrong way. It's like my tongue has a mind of its' own and can really say some mean, hateful things! I don't want to say mean and hateful things. So I want to break free from the underlying anger that takes control of my tongue. I want only beautiful, loving words to come from my mouth.

4. Fear. Fear has taken over me and has been beating me up for several years now. Sometimes it becomes so overwhelming that I don't know how I get any sleep at night. I want to be rid of this fear and fully know that our lives are in the hand of our Creator and nobody else has control over it.

5. Anxiety. Anxiety loves to hang out with Fear. They are best buddies and will go all out until they have you completely in their clutches. I cannot wait to kick these two to the curb!

6. Regret. Man, that regret is a funny little thing. Just when you think that she has left for good she appears, once again, stronger then ever! Maybe one day I will understand that everything in my past is over, and I cannot go back and change it. I just have to move ahead and know that whether the decision was good or bad, I have hopefully learned from it and it has lead me to where I am now.

7. Guilt. If Fear and Anxiety are best buddies, then Guilt and Regret are twins. Not identical but fraternal twins. They don't look exactly alike but they are pretty similar and they both arrive at the same time. I cannot wait to break free from the guilt that I carry around like a heavy coat of armor. How much easier it will be to run forward without guilt!

Okay, so I started out thinking that I could easily list ten things that I was ready to break free from. After thinking about the first seven, I am mentally and emotionally drained.

I cannot wait to be free from all of these troubles that are weighing me down.

I am ready to surrender them all.